Perfect Timing!

In the midst of last week's chaos, I receive a message from a friend of mine who had no clue what I was going through (read my previous posting) to tell me that there is a major event in my area that I needed to attend. Reluctant to call him back because of my pathetic state of mind I did anyway. Thank God I did because it was Divine intervention.

After a couple referred phone calls to his friend and his friend's friend, I receive 2 tickets in the mail from the host of the event himself. A couple of days later I get a phone call from my dear friend Patty asking me to meet for coffee the next day. And in my meeting with her, she commented on how positive my outlook is in light of everything that had happened in my previous week. I agreed. I then mentioned that I have an event to attend but I'm not sure if I'm going. She encourage to go and she offered to go with me. She said that she wouldn't let me stay home in my pity party anyway (not in her own words).

And let me just say, what a show! The line up of celebrity entrepreneur speakers that spoke was amazing. I had about a gazillion "aha" moments. As if God was speaking to me again and again. It was perfect timing too because I was on the verge of seriously considering giving up on my company/dream and take the easy way out. I gave myself that week to decide whether I should move forward or give up. Well, I'm not giving up. I want to know what it feels like to have a success story. I want to know what if feels like to say I made it against all odds. The big message I received was that I have it me to succeed and I am three feet away from my breakthrough. Another lesson that popped out that I thought was ironic was - don't make any decisions when your in your valley. Funny!

Here is the trailer if you are curious to know where I went: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oACS8wTKTAA

Thanks for reading'
Millie

After all was said and done...I go back to basics!

Today I reflected on my previous postings, and to tell you the truth, I had a more of a delightful time reading my episodes of good deeds more than anything else. So going back to my previous intentions, let me tell you about my current random act of kindness.

In light of my dad's passing my mother has been scared to stay home alone by herself. Call it fear of ghost or whatever you want but she does not want to be alone. Completely understandable. However, if you read my previous posting, I too am grieving for more than one reasons. But as her daughter, I have to put that aside and make sure that my mom is ok.

Looking forward to a peaceful evening in a lonely bedroom to sulk in my own pathetic sorrow, I give that up to make sure my mother is not alone and make ready to spend the night at her house (keeping in mind that I just got done hosting my relatives in my house for a whole week). I felt like screaming to the top of my lungs to leave me alone, I need time to mourn. Ahhh!

Well, here's what I'm concluding to, I've been looking forward to a breakdown that isn't coming, looking forward to a melt down, but for some reason, I'm doing pretty well. Could it be that I'm not the same person as I use to be and I'm sitting here expecting the worse and the worse that I use to know isn't anymore..if that makes any sense.

Maybe the same girl that use to handle these is better equipped to handle these situations and I just didn't know it. I sat here waiting for the worst "me" to take over but low and behold, I'm ok.


So, if that is true, then thank you Lord for preparing me for such occasions. Please, don't misunderstand, I am very much heart broken, but I think I'm a little bit more mature than I use to be. I was more afraid of dealing with the pain than the pain itself. Like riding a roller coaster...afraid of the ride but once you're in it, you realize it's not so bad.


Huh!? Interesting!

Thank you for reading,
Millie